放下又捡起

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I've started learning the same language three separate times now. 同一门语言，这已经是我第三次重新开始学了。

I learn a bit, life gets busy, I stop, 每次学了一阵，生活一忙起来就停了，

and a year later I've forgotten most of it 过了一年又忘得差不多了，

and start again from the beginning. 然后又得从头再来。

For a long time this made me feel like a failure. 很长一段时间里，这都让我觉得自己很失败。

All that wasted effort, just to end up back at square one. 费了那么大劲，结果还是回到了原点。

But I've started to see it differently. 但我现在开始换了个角度看这件事。

Each time I come back, I'm not really starting from zero. 每次重新捡起来，其实都不算真正从零开始。

Something stays. 总有些东西是留下来了的。

The second time was easier than the first, 第二次学比第一次要容易，

and the third easier than the second. 第三次又比第二次更轻松。

The words come back faster than they left. 那些单词重新记起的速度，比当初忘掉它们时要快得多。

Maybe the goal was never to learn it in one perfect run. 也许目标从来就不是一气呵成、完美地学完。

Maybe picking it up again, after putting it down, 也许放下之后再重新拾起，

is just what learning looks like for a busy adult. 才是一个忙碌的成年人学习时最真实的样子。