热闹后的空虚

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There's a strange feeling I get sometimes, 有时候我会有一种很奇怪的感觉，

right after a fun night out with lots of people. 就在和一大帮人尽情玩了一整晚之后。

I come home, close the door, 我回到家，关上门，

and instead of feeling happy and full, I feel oddly empty. 非但没有感到开心和充实，反而觉得莫名地空虚。

For years this confused me. 好多年来我一直想不通这是为什么。

How could I feel lonely right after being surrounded by friends? 明明刚才身边全都是朋友，怎么转头就会觉得孤独呢？

But I think I understand it now. 但现在我想我明白了。

Sometimes we fill our time with noise 有时候，我们用喧闹把时间填满，

and crowds precisely to avoid being quiet with ourselves. 一头扎进人群里，恰恰是为了逃避安静独处的自己。

And when the noise suddenly stops, 而当喧嚣突然停下来，

whatever we were avoiding is still there, waiting. 我们逃避的一切其实依然还在那儿等着。

Now, instead of rushing to fill that emptiness with another plan, 现在，我不再急着用新的安排去填补那种空虚，

I try to sit with it for a minute. 而是试着坐下来，和那种感觉相处一会儿。

That quiet after the party isn't something wrong with me. 聚会散场后的这种安静，并不是我哪里出了毛病。

It's just my own self, asking for a little attention. 那只是我自己的内心，在渴望我的一点点关注罢了。