大哭一场

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For a long time, I thought crying was a sign of weakness, 很长一段时间里，我都觉得哭是软弱的表现，

something to be ashamed of and swallowed down. 是件丢人的事，只能硬生生咽回肚子里。

So I'd hold it in, keep it together, stay strong, 所以我总是憋着、强撑着，装出一副坚强的样子，

until the pressure built up 直到心里的压力越积越多，

and leaked out sideways as anger or exhaustion. 最后变相成了莫名的怒火，或是整个人彻底累垮。

But I've changed my mind about tears. 但现在，我对眼泪有了不一样的看法。

Now I understand that sometimes a good 我现在明白了，有时候痛痛快快地

cry is exactly what the body needs. 哭上一场，恰恰是身体最需要的宣泄。

There have been evenings where I finally let myself fall apart completely, 有好几个夜晚，我终于允许自己彻底崩溃大哭，

and afterward, I felt lighter, clearer, almost washed clean. 哭完之后，我反而觉得一身轻，脑子清醒了，整个人像是被彻底清洗了一遍。

The feeling had somewhere to go. 那些情绪终于有了去处。

Holding everything in never actually made it disappear. 把什么都憋在心里，其实从来没有让痛苦真正消失，

It just buried it. 不过是把它埋得更深罢了。

I've learned that letting yourself feel something fully, 我慢慢懂得，允许自己去充分体会所有的感受，

even the painful stuff, is often the fastest way through it. 哪怕是那些痛苦的事，往往才是走出来最快的方式。

Strength isn't never crying. 坚强并不是从不掉眼泪，

Sometimes it's allowing yourself to. 有时候，允许自己哭出来才是。